Uncertainty Lurking

I'm not sure what to say right now. Everything around me seems to be a blur. My room, closet, and bathroom are a mess cluttered with clothes lying about. Summer school courses are in full swing and make me dread the awaited summer days. But life is good. I'm alive, well, healthy, and breathing. I have wonderful family and am beginning to make some magnificent friends. I'm working towards my dream body twice a week with a personal trainer. And I'm starting to focus more on what I eat, trying to balance some more health beneficial foods to my diet. I am happy. I never realized saying those three words could be so calming, reassuring, and above all, for the first time in a long time, true. Slowly, but surely, I feel myself wanting to laugh at the ever-going pettiness of those middle-school bullies. When I think of them and their actions, I feel anger exude within me, but then the Lord sends me the reassuring message of temporary pain and the greatest fact of life: it moves on. So when I see their latest text or Instagram post, I laugh, more of a chuckle, to myself. "Do you really think you're all that?" I ask myself. I know the answer, but I can't change it, so that leaves me with one choice: accept the things you cannot change.

So now, I pray:

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

That's what I seek now, serenity. 

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.

Proverbs 3, 5-6

My mom has always said to me, "He who angers you controls you." Everyday, I realize how much more true this is. I'm tired of letting these people control me, so now I can't allow them to anger me. I have to regain control of myself. 

May God Bless,

Sarah Elizabeth