Fear

It is past midnight, and my summer school enrichment program (at my future high school) starts "bright eyed and bushy tailed" tomorrow morning. But for some reason, I can't sleep. Am I nervous? Yes, but not excessively. Am I scared? Yes, I am scared of doing something embarrassing or making a bad first impression. And as I am trying so very hard to shake my fears and nerves away, I think of how fear prevents us from making giant leaps and bounds in our lives.

When Civil Rights was BIG, think of all the people who revolutionized the history books. Rosa Parks and Martin Luther King Jr. to name a few. These people did things that many weren't able to do because others were too scared.

Think of those who left England to come to America to create a good life for themselves. Was it easy? Breaking away from Britain's reign soon after was also another feat that otherwise wouldn't have been mastered.

Everyday people like you and I prevent daily life from greatness because of our fear to be different, or our fear to fail.

This leads me to my next point, fear of failure. I think that fear overrides all of my other fears combined. I fear not being good enough, not succeeding, or in juvenile terms "screwing up." I want to do amazing things in my life, but in order to do that, I have to delete my fear of failure. So, I believe now (in the month of June), I have finally found my "New Year's Resolution" if you will,  I'm going to start living, I am going to allow life to happen, and I am going to accept the things I cannot change. If I fail, I get up and start over again. Isn't that what life is all about? Learning and accepting to learn.

I see my future. There are mistakes, not regrets, because if it weren't for the mistakes I'll make, I would never reach my climax - my full potential. I see many mess-ups and re-dos. I see many "I'm Sorry!" apologizes. But if I search hard, behind all the negatives, I see someone who is happy, who is doing what she loves, and who through all the ups and downs, finally reached her climax.

So now, I guess I have to catch some Z's. So I'm holding on, pray for me as I walk into high school with my head held high. You may have to walk in the valley, but eventually you will reach the top of the mountain. As Miley Cyrus ( a somewhat bizarre reference ) sang, "Life's A Climb!" So I have got all my hiking/ climbing gear (you're right it's pink!), and I'm walking through the valley to start my climb upwards, if I fall, it's just another chance to climb back up again. Life's a climb, but the view is great.

God Bless,
Sarah Elizabeth