Unanswered Prayers

"Sometimes I thank God, for unanswered prayers
Remember when you’re talkin’ to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn’t answer doesn’t mean he don’t care
Some of God’s greatest gifts, are unanswered prayers."
Quoted From Garth Brooks' Unanswered Prayers

Just Some Thoughts On My Mind:

I know that I spend more time praying than probably just about any other "thing" in my life. Before you think I am some amazing Catholic, let me further explain. I pray for myself: whether it be the strength for the task, day, or struggle; something on my wish list; or for others. However, when I pray for others, I feel like I am praying for myself. Follow this scenario:

Let's say for instance I pray that our family can cut out certain technology use to grow closer. {Not that this would EVER go over well in my household!!} Yes, I am wanting it for the wellbeing in all of us, but deep down I feel it's mostly for myself.

God has blessed me with such an amazing life and so many wonderful things within it. I have had the opportunity to experience and take part in so many amazing happenings. I have a great family that has instilled me wonderful morals and values. This list could go on for days, but I am so amazingly grateful.

Something that I truly believe has been beneficial to my personal growth is seeing and growing to know those less fortunate than I. Essentially, it has made me more aware of the world around me and much more grateful for all the good in my life.

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However, I often allow myself to think I'm a bad person. Am I? I would hope not, especially since I strive to be the best person I can each day. I fall short of my goals each day. I make mistakes. Often, people tell me that noticing this is the important thing, but I don't know how much I believe it. Yes, it's important to realize our shortcomings, but what's the good if we can't change and better ourselves. I try, I really do, but I always manage to mess everything up.

And lately, as I reflect upon myself and my past, I am so eternally grateful to God for my unanswered prayers. I am grateful to him for allowing me to make mistakes, to push through the hard times, to dream big, perhaps unrealistic dreams, and more than anything for my sensitivity. 

I wish to be stronger, but at the end of the day, I am me!!! I care perhaps too much for other's feelings. I care too much about what I think I do wrong. I take things personally, and assume others do to. That essentially makes me so much more of a caring person.

GOD SHOWED ME WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO BE HURT WITH THE INTENTION TO CARE FOR OTHERS!!

So, you know, I might care too much, but I don't want others to hurt. I don't want others to bear pain, at least the pain I can reduce.

Goodnight! Go give your family a hug and thank the Lord.

Because tonight, I am thanking the Lord for my unanswered prayers!

May the Lord Bless You All Tonight,

Sarah Elizabeth